06 agosto 2008

Today is one of those days

You don't want to deal with. There are so many things I don't want to deal with right now and sometimes I think I can't handle this situation anymore, but there is nothing I can do to make it better, to make it disappear.

Its not because I don't want to change it, Its because I'm not the one who could do it. I know I should be patience, understanding, I shouldn't feel this way, I have no reasons to feel bad, I know how things really are, and they are great.

But this so hard, painful, difficult to get over with, no matter how much I want to think it doesn't bother me it does, I thought I really forgot the damages but I guess not. It's an open wound that never heals, why I'm not letting myself to heal? why I can't trust? 

Why I have to think bad? why I can't see just positive stuff, the good things,  the things that I love? Why am I so scared to be hurt again? what I'm doing is only making that possible I could get hurt, because I'm making everything worst, so I NEED to get over it if I want this to work! 
I really want it to work. I need this to work.

2 comentarios:

Michelle dijo...

(((hugs))) I'm always here if you need to talk

Anónimo dijo...

Give it time. It will get better. {{{hugs}}}


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