Not the happiest day

I'm not feeling happy today, everyone say as the days pass I'm going to feel better but that's not true, it gets harder and harder because I think of the stuff I planned to do with him, the things he promised to help me and the things we did together plus everywhere I go I hear this song:

I want to break free
I want to break free
I want to break free from your lies
Youre so self satisfied I dont need you
Ive got to break free
God knows God knows I want to break free

Ive fallen in love
Ive fallen in love for the first time
And this time I know its for real
Ive fallen in love yeah
God knows God knows Ive fallen in love

Its strange but its true
I cant get over the way you love me like you do
But I have to be sure
When I walk out that door
Oh how I want to be free baby
Oh how I want to be free
Oh how I want to break free

But life still goes on
I cant get used to living without living without
Living without you by my side
I dont want to live alone hey
God knows got to make it on my own
So baby cant you see
Ive got to break free

Ive got to break free
I want to break free yeah

I want I want I want I want to break free....

and that's what I want........ I want to break free from this pain in my chest, from the tears in my eyes, I want to forget, I want to be happy again
I want to break free from the memories, the songs we liked and the places we went.
I want t0 feel free again.
Even with all this pain I'm feeling I want him to be happy, I wish him all the luck in the world and I hope all his problems to be fix. He is a great guy and he deserves a good life.